16 days weedfree

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Following a 10 day (yoga) retreat, I stopped. Now 16 days into it. To make it feel more doable, I set a goal of 40 days, hoping that would get me over the hump. Many good reasons to quit; it just doesn’t sit well with who I am & where I still want to go in my life. I’m retired now, in relationship (she doesn’t use), have some good community around me, but was mucking it up with everyday tokes. Can’t sleep, using ambien to get through–which creates its own problems. I’m addictive, traumatized early, & always on the lookout for a dopamine boost. (I look depressed, in spite of creating a pretty good life for myself!) I do not feel steady on my feet with this whatsoever. Hoping to round the corner with y’all. It could happen; feels about 50/50 right now. Thanks for your love & support…