50 years smoking almost everyday and also exerciseling everyday. I’m a small town guy, but I have been a NYC lawyer for decades. My resume looks terrific, but I know my failures because of weed., and they are many. But I appear successful, so it’s hard to talk to anyone about this problem; I appear problem-free. I stop periodically - even for years at a time. I just need a place to talk about this. I’ve learned that most people associate a good looking resume with a problem free life. I just need a place to talk.