516 Days Clean & Sober
- before May 2, 2022 I could not put two days together without getting high
- here is my recipe toward my sobriety
went cold turkey
just said no to any and all cravings
slugged it out with horrible dreams,
inability to sleep, feelings of depression
and anxiety, thoughts and feelings like
I was truly going out of my mind, anger,
intolerance, impatience, why the fuck
am I feeling this way, when is all of this
going to stop, how much longer am I
going to have to suffer, maybe just one
hit won’t be such a big deal, JUST SAID
NO, NO, participated with our group
every day, sometimes several times a
day, was totally honest with others and
and most importantly with myself - as the fog, the haze, the numbness
started to lift, I began to experience what it was like to truly be me, the clarity led to more clarity, a sense of joy and personal accomplishment began to grow, the small and the so not small miracles began to appear - my problems, challenges, feelings I had numbed over for years were mine to deal with (and man was that scary at first) I spoke with my Therapist once a week (and still do) I continue to consult with my Psychiatrist once a month, I take my SSRI every morning (without fail)
- I am enjoying my family, our three grandchildren, my everyday life, like I have not in way too long😍
Why am I sharing all of this? (and believe you me, there is so much more), because I/we are so much alike, I am an addict and will always be an addict (and I have made peace with that) wanting to remain clean and sober 1 day at a time🙏
No magic formula, no potions, no using any and all mind altering substances and an undying determination to never look back, never go back to where I was prior to May 2, 2022
Does any or all of this sound familiar?
Do I believe that each and everyone of you can truly live a life without Weed? Yes, Yes and Yes. Will it be possibly the hardest thing you have ever done, Yes, will it take a long time, Yes, will leaving the Weed in your rear view mirror be a life changing event, Yes! The only question which remains is are you willing to do what it takes???