I’ll keep it short and sweet because I hate complaining but I’ve heard it helps to write it down and get it out there. Smoking was fun for a while (maybe longer than that) but getting older means gaining responsibility. At first I had little to nothing depending on me. Now I have rent, electric, wifi, groceries, a dog, etc. That being said, there aren’t a whole lot of jobs out there that don’t drug test. Even less that are willing to pay what I need to keep going. By letting weed take control of my life, I’m staying stagnant. Friends, acquaintances, and even strangers I went to school with are graduating college, getting married, having kids, working their dreams jobs. All the while I’m sitting on my ass at home bored of playing the same video games I’ve played for 10 plus years giving no effort… No degree, barely a job, and a lust to keep doing the same damn thing. I’m never going to get anywhere if I allow this to continue. Weed is ruining my life.
I can completely relate with you, although I didn’t waste my years playing video games but entertaining myself through movies, web series and sports on television. I do have a graduation degree in Sales & Marketing from 2013 but I never made a good use of that due to my lethargic attitude towards life and work.
I found inspiration to quit weed and learn some skill at the age of 36 in order to refocus on my life after deeply recognizing my failure as a human being and as a son. I am not on social media anymore and nor do I compare myself to others but when I look at myself and ask this question - “Is this all I can do in life?”, I find my answer and the motivation to ditch this pathetic addiction for good.